Personal loss is more than sadness. It's an unfillable void. We can do our best to try, but I'm convinced it's not supposed to get filled up. That hole in our life is there so we don't forget. If you mark it from the one year anniversary of my mom's death, it's been a year of loss, including the passing two friends.
To cope with this last one, a dear friend whom I've known for nearly 30 years, I turned to the crocheting of a prayer/comfort shawl for his wife. It was my vacation crochet project. Something I could do, since so far away, I wasn't present for his funeral, which was tough for me.
Pattern: Seraphina's Shawl, a free crochet pattern, meant for thicker yarn and larger hook. Wanting something light as angel's wings I chose a lacier look.
Yarn: Malabrigo Lace, 2 skeins
Thoughts: This is crochet that looks and feels like lace knitting. I'll do this one again. Thinking about the purpose of a comfort shawl, and always afraid that the recipient won't receive it in the spirit intended, I realize that its purpose goes both ways. The memories, intentions and grief worked through in the making of these projects also benefits me.
I've lost a faithful follower of my blog since day one, over eight hundred posts ago. I miss him.
Update: since the writing of this post we have received word of another loss, our vibrant and talented cousin Michael in Denmark. I look at his accomplishments and feel the meaning of his music and lyrics - Dance Like Nobody's Watching for example, and my personal favourite, on the lighter side, Dishes Done. Life is short.